March

I remember there was this one time in college that I was extremely amused at there being an organized strike and protest on March 4th. You know, like “‘march forth”? HAHA. So clever.

So, February has come and gone, and I apologize for the lack of updates. I can use the excuse that February just flew by because it’s so short, but in reality it’s only three days shorter, so it’s not really an excuse. The real reason is that I’ve been lazy.

But now it’s March! And I have a few things that I do want to write about so hopefully those ideas will take form in typed words on this very blog. One of those ideas involves Harry Potter. You have been warned.

In other news, February has been a very busy month, with a few different people staying to visit and rehearsals galore for our student choreography showcase that was just last night. For the most part, I’d say the showcase was a success – a success because it managed to run from start to finish without any major mishaps and the dances were pretty much all finished. I’ve never been much of a choreographer but somehow got hoodwinked into choreographing again, even though I swore I never would after Thrive. And after this experience choreographing it made me me realize again just how much I miss the Berkeley dance community and working with talented dancers. Not to say that the dancers at school aren’t talented, but I miss the style and the passion of Thrive Dance Company and the loud craziness of Movement and Abba.

Again and again, I ask myself the question – why am I here? And again and again I am asked by others – why are you here? New York City feels like the place to be for all dreamers. Probably 95% of the people I meet here are in school or trying to be something. An interior designer, a stand-up comedian, a graphic designer, an actress, a dancer… and I have joined those ranks. (Frozen just won for Best Animated Film at the Oscars. Hooray! Yes, I am tri-tasking right now.. eating dinner, blogging, and watching the Oscars..Zac Efron is one of the announcers! I should have dedicated a blog spot solely to my running commentary on the Oscars. For example, Zac Efron just mixed up the words aspiration and inspiring because he didn’t know what to say.)

I still cringe a little bit when I have to explain once again to someone that I am here as a ballet student, not at JKO or SAB, but just a different ballet program. Honestly, I don’t know exactly why I’m here, only that I am, and since I am, the best thing to do is to keep living as faithfully as I can. A friend recently reminded me of the movie Chariots of Fire, and this quote by the main character: “I believe God made me for a purpose, but He also made me fast.” I am exactly where I am supposed to be, exactly who I am made to be, with all my flaws and dreams and passions and pursuits…

(Oscar update: one of the women from 20 Feet From Stardom which just won for Documentary Feature, just belted out “His Eye Is On The Sparrow.”)

I’m still learning what it means to seek God first and to worship Him no matter the circumstance. But the second half of the Eric Liddell quote is as follows: “And when I run, I feel His pleasure.” Can I pursue the things that I know bring joy to God first and foremost? Will I know when I am turning my face away from Him instead of running closer to Him? I hope and pray for the wisdom and discernment to do so, and hope that will be my dream instead of anything else this world has to offer.