Motherhood, One Year

Today is Junie's birthday! Wow, what a year. A rollercoaster of terrifying newness. I really did not know how much my life would change - so much sacrifice, so much learning, so much pain. I know I've hit some pretty low points in the past but this year had some record-breaking lows.

I realized that I never wrote my Postpartum Recovery, Part 2 post about the mental and emotional side of things - probably because, to be honest, I'm still in recovery. I think the main thing I've learned is that I know nothing, haha. And that it's ok if it's harder for me than it was/is for other people, because this is my journey and no one else's. For my motherhood journey, I did not feel like I experienced a lot of joy in this first year. Some pockets here and there, but if I look back, there was a lot of struggle. I still feel ashamed to admit this - like I am being ungrateful. Good thing that this journey is not over and maybe in the grand scheme of things, year one will only be a small part of it all!

If I could describe how I am feeling in one word: humbled.